Desperate times….

…Call for desperate measures.

I was getting ready for physio today and caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I couldn’t believe my eyes. Really? Is that where I have let myself fallen to?

I am writing this post lying flat on my back at physio therapy. You know over the course of the last 7 years that I have been battling weight issues and health issues, I have pretty much run the gammut of emotions. Pain. Frustration. Anger. Inspired, motivated, and defeated. Today I am pissed.

I am going to war against the fat on my body, and against the weakness in my mind that ultimately got me to 230 LBS with an unbelievable 49 inch waist. I will not lose this time.

Physio wipes me out

So for the second session in a few days physio has kicked my butt.  I think though that’s good, and should show that its helping.  I am back at physio on Thursday.

 

I slept quite a bit tonight, because I took my muscle relaxants because I was so drug out now I am awake and will probably be up for a while.  Just got done playing some Backgammon on the XBOX 360 which I purchased on the weekend with money have been saving since the spring.  Backgammon is a great game, which I  hadn’t played for a few years since playing with my buddy Donnie about two years ago.

 

So all in all not a whole lot going on.  Just trying to get some writing in. 

Live From Physio Table

I am writing today on my cell phone laying flat on my back from the physio table. I am hooked up to a tenz machine (4 electrodes sending little shock things thru me) and I am just waiting for this to end and then have my physio therapist terrorize me, haha.

Yesterday I went for a nice two hour walk and was no worse for the wear. I won’t be able to go for a walk today til later, as I have my youngest home sick with the stomach flu, and then my wife is busy this evening. I will try and fit a walk in when I can, in between stuff.

I also need to fire up the Wii again, and get moving on that again. As I have been saying all along movement for me is key. I need to move all I can, be it treadmill, hiking, other forms of cardio whatever.

Well the Tenz machine just stopped, so I will sign off for now.

Things have been quiet

I was just updating another blog and realized I hadn’t posted here in a few days. I haven’t been up to a whole lot, so I guess not a whole lot to write about. Made it out with a couple buddies to play some live poker the other night and had a fun time. We played in a local pool hall and its always interesting to meet different characters across a poker table.

I have been exercising more and more and aside from being a little stiff its going pretty good. I am dropping a little weight and eating well. Got a long way to go but I am off to a great start so far.

Still doing twice a week physio therapy but hopefully this is the last week of twice a week. I return to work a week from today and I am looking forward to getting back into a regular pattern and schedule.

All for now got to get ready for physio.

Things have been quiet

I was just updating another blog and realized I hadn’t posted here in a few days. I haven’t been up to a whole lot, so I guess not a whole lot to write about. Made it out with a couple buddies to play some live poker the other night and had a fun time. We played in a local pool hall and its always interesting to meet different characters across a poker table.

I have been exercising more and more and aside from being a little stiff its going pretty good. I am dropping a little weight and eating well. Got a long way to go but I am off to a great start so far.

Still doing twice a week physio therapy but hopefully this is the last week of twice a week. I return to work a week from today and I am looking forward to getting back into a regular pattern and schedule.

All for now got to get ready for physio.

Here

Well my various blogs have grown quiet again, no particular not to much to say I guess. Not a whole lot new going on in my life, still physio, working etc. My headaches are gone for now, but my neck is now the biggest area giving me issues, but that seems to change every couple days.

My father had a fairly serious neck operation last week, but got through it ok, and the early prognosis is good. I don’t know the particulars other than it was a fusion, with a bone graph. It went really well so that is a relief.

I have physio today and Thursday, and tommorrow a ergonomic assessment at work as well as a cat scan. So coordinating all of this around work, and getting the kids etc (with only one car which my wife has) is an adventure, but it is what it is. Won’t go into details but yesterday I heard a story that makes my racket a mere inconvience. Always someone thats got it tougher.

All for now, off to physio.

Here

Well my various blogs have grown quiet again, no particular not to much to say I guess. Not a whole lot new going on in my life, still physio, working etc. My headaches are gone for now, but my neck is now the biggest area giving me issues, but that seems to change every couple days.

My father had a fairly serious neck operation last week, but got through it ok, and the early prognosis is good. I don’t know the particulars other than it was a fusion, with a bone graph. It went really well so that is a relief.

I have physio today and Thursday, and tommorrow a ergonomic assessment at work as well as a cat scan. So coordinating all of this around work, and getting the kids etc (with only one car which my wife has) is an adventure, but it is what it is. Won’t go into details but yesterday I heard a story that makes my racket a mere inconvience. Always someone thats got it tougher.

All for now, off to physio.

Live from Doctors office

Sitting in the doctor’s office, blogging on my treo. A lot of people here, looks like I am in for a long wait.

My back pain isn’t a whole lot better but the headaches, the massive migraine ones, have gone away. The physiotherapist says if I go back next week he recommends half days for a couple weeks and then a week of 6 hour days. I will see soon what is going on.

Not a lot else new. Been taking it easy for the most part. Been trying to get my walks in and stay away from the long stretches on the computer.

My big problems back wise are posture and the postural muscles and I am sure the extra weight I am carrying around. These two things are fixable with some work. Time to get to work both literally and figuratively.

Friday

I am blogging to you live from the doctors office waiting room this morning. I am here for a checkup and to see if I am returning to work next week. The physio guy suggests if I do go back to go back gradually (half days or whatever) and he said regardless the first week back is going to suck.

I am tipping the scales at a ridiculous 234 lbs. Embarrassing. I have no business weighing more than 200 LBS. let alone 230. I have 60 lbs. to lose. I have about 15 inches to lose from my waist. I cannot get overwhelmed by the long ways I need to go and just focus on the small steps that will lead to the progress.

Its gonna take me a while to get off all this weight, as I didn’t wake up one morning with 50 extra lbs. As long as I take care of putting together good days, the weeks and months will take care of themselves.

Live from Doctors office

Sitting in the doctor’s office, blogging on my treo. A lot of people here, looks like I am in for a long wait.

My back pain isn’t a whole lot better but the headaches, the massive migraine ones, have gone away. The physiotherapist says if I go back next week he recommends half days for a couple weeks and then a week of 6 hour days. I will see soon what is going on.

Not a lot else new. Been taking it easy for the most part. Been trying to get my walks in and stay away from the long stretches on the computer.

My big problems back wise are posture and the postural muscles and I am sure the extra weight I am carrying around. These two things are fixable with some work. Time to get to work both literally and figuratively.